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ac/dc, right? as for the "bad" experience i talked about earlier, here they are...(yet another example for a bad introductory sentence)
- later that day after we went to bumy's school, an accident happened. bumy's head struck the corner of the wall. a bump immediately showed on his forehead. i was panicked as hell. my kid screamed and cried sooo loud.
maybe it's partly because he could sense my being panicked and afraid.
without much of thinking, i grabbed the car key and called up satpam kompleks to accompany me to KMC. oh Lord. it was one of the scariest moment i ever had :((
jalanan macet pula despite it was 3 o'clock in the afternoon.
alhamdulillah the doctor said bumy's fine. no need to worry no more. but i stiil feel awful. i feel guilty for my negligence :(
i know nothing can fix that incident. i know but i still can't help the awful feeling....
- later that day after we went to bumy's school, an accident happened. bumy's head struck the corner of the wall. a bump immediately showed on his forehead. i was panicked as hell. my kid screamed and cried sooo loud.
maybe it's partly because he could sense my being panicked and afraid.
without much of thinking, i grabbed the car key and called up satpam kompleks to accompany me to KMC. oh Lord. it was one of the scariest moment i ever had :((
jalanan macet pula despite it was 3 o'clock in the afternoon.
alhamdulillah the doctor said bumy's fine. no need to worry no more. but i stiil feel awful. i feel guilty for my negligence :(
i know nothing can fix that incident. i know but i still can't help the awful feeling....
- and then that night, after adit's home and bumy's asleep, adit and i
held a
family meeting. i told him everythiingg, curhat habis-habisan, pour my emotions on him. because i needed to vent and let go of the
emotions. soon afterwards, we listed down the "problems" and brainstorm about the solutions. i'ma write it down on a whole other post....
- we also hit a "road block" at selling rumah karawaci. something about pemrosesan takeover KPR that's not running smoothly between our bank and the buyer's bank. adit even located a whole day off to go to both banks to find a solution to this problem. to no avail :(
after we spent a few nights talking about this and trying to find a strategy around it, alhamdulillah we were shown a titik cerah hikmah. hehe. nope, still no solution about the KPR takeover. instead, we got a whole new perspective regarding the situation. we have talked about having an active asset. well, maybe this is the door to that opportunity. of course, some adjustments and settlements need to be made (with the buyer and on our financial map), but we *do* hope to get around that (baca: #modalnekat).
emotions. soon afterwards, we listed down the "problems" and brainstorm about the solutions. i'ma write it down on a whole other post....
- we also hit a "road block" at selling rumah karawaci. something about pemrosesan takeover KPR that's not running smoothly between our bank and the buyer's bank. adit even located a whole day off to go to both banks to find a solution to this problem. to no avail :(
after we spent a few nights talking about this and trying to find a strategy around it, alhamdulillah we were shown a titik cerah hikmah. hehe. nope, still no solution about the KPR takeover. instead, we got a whole new perspective regarding the situation. we have talked about having an active asset. well, maybe this is the door to that opportunity. of course, some adjustments and settlements need to be made (with the buyer and on our financial map), but we *do* hope to get around that (baca: #modalnekat).
- i've also been feeling a bit down myself. feeling sucked at
time-management and doing consistent routines for bumy's activity, feeling anxious over little things. and also feeling repulsive over
certain things.
like, my writing-course, for which i've been feeling a bit reluctant lately.
i guess it's the teacher's method, that kind of kills the excitement of writing out of impulsiveness for me. she's very organized, and she explained the steps of writing very accurately. she gives boundaries in the form of which is good and which is less.
when i told adit about it, he, being a shiny-optimist that he is, said i should try making it a benefit for my writing "skill."
"that (such well-organized and having-purpose-on-writing method) could expand your ground in terms of writing. you'd write better because now you won't be writing 'just because.'"
or at least now i'd know if what i write would be consider as shit by the big authors....
but i bought his words, as i always do. because he sees the glass half full and i'm the one who would throw that glass across the room.
the past week and the current one also gives me the challenge for finding time to be able to write. not rambling and curhat-ing like this... but as in making articles for MD, huhuh. i don't know why it takes such an effort. maybe because i am in the process of adjusting my roles and schedules, or might as well because i'm such in an emotional whirlwind lately. *deep sigh*
like, my writing-course, for which i've been feeling a bit reluctant lately.
i guess it's the teacher's method, that kind of kills the excitement of writing out of impulsiveness for me. she's very organized, and she explained the steps of writing very accurately. she gives boundaries in the form of which is good and which is less.
when i told adit about it, he, being a shiny-optimist that he is, said i should try making it a benefit for my writing "skill."
"that (such well-organized and having-purpose-on-writing method) could expand your ground in terms of writing. you'd write better because now you won't be writing 'just because.'"
or at least now i'd know if what i write would be consider as shit by the big authors....
but i bought his words, as i always do. because he sees the glass half full and i'm the one who would throw that glass across the room.
the past week and the current one also gives me the challenge for finding time to be able to write. not rambling and curhat-ing like this... but as in making articles for MD, huhuh. i don't know why it takes such an effort. maybe because i am in the process of adjusting my roles and schedules, or might as well because i'm such in an emotional whirlwind lately. *deep sigh*
"There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are the messengers of overwhelming grief, of deep contrition, and of unspeakable love."
(Washington Irving)
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